make me feel better, please

I shave my legs, I sit down to pee, I can justify any shopping spree. Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon, I can get a massage without a hard-on. I can balance the checkbook, I can pump my own gas, can talk to my friends about the size of my ass. My beauty is a masterpiece, and yes, it takes long. At least I can admit to others when I'm wrong. I don't drive in circles, at any cost. I don't have a problem admitting I'm lost. I never forget an important date. You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late. I don't watch movies with lots of gore. Don't need instant replay to remember the score. I won't lose my hair, don't get jock itch. And just cause I'm assertive, don't call me a bitch. Don't say to your friends, oh yeah I can get her. In your dreams dear, I can do better. Flowers are okay, but jewelery is best. Look at ME, idiot, not at my chest. I don't have a problem expressing my feelings, I know when you are lying, you stare at the ceiling. Don't call me a GIRL, a BABE, or a CHICK. I am a LADY. Don't you get it? You dick.

This is something I found on the net. Nice, huh? :D Gosh, I feel terrible today. Unusually unhappy. You know, someone might say that everything I wrote on my blog sounds rebelious and depressing. I just can't help it, can I? Writing is the only way to make me feel better, apart from being with my loved ones. I did try to be happy most of the time, but there are times when things just suck and make me sad. I don't want to go back to Caen. Despite all the fun I'm having there, I just don't feel like going back. I want to stay at home for a few more days, until I feel better. Until everything just goes back to normal. But what is normal again? I don't know what normal is anymore. I feel like a lost cause. Maybe I should stay away from guys. Like Wan said, I should be alone for a while. You know, pull myself together. Because whenever I get close to a guy, I hate being ignored, I'd feel disappointed. Susah nye. *sigh* But anyways, I am glad that I'm going to be really busy next week. With teaching and tests and classes. I don't know if I have time to go back next weekend. We'll see. Okaylah, I have guests to entertain. I'll write again soon. Toodles!~

p/s : 26 more days to go.

Listening to : Bangun - Sorganina